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AFRAID TO LOVE	By : ShioriFoxiesMom Category: Yuyu Hakusho > Yaoi - Male/Male > Hiei/Kurama Views: 8987 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter 12

No sooner had Kurama left than Hiei heard Yukina sigh. �Oh Kurama, what have we done?�
Frowning he turned to her. �What have WE done? What about what he�s done?�
Yukina exchanged a look with Yusuke before turning to Hiei. �Brother, we need to talk. Let�s go have a seat.�
When they were seated in the living room, Yukina sighed. �Hiei, I know Kurama hurt you, but I have no doubt he cares about you. Making this your home in the Ningenkai was his idea. He personally chose everything here to make a nice home just for you.�
Hiei grunted. �Like I would ever come back here with him around.�
Yusuke shook his head. �If you�d bothered to come around Hiei, you�d know he wouldn�t have been here. He told us he wanted you to be free to visit your home and us any time you wanted without having to worry about seeing him.�
Reaching for his hand, Yukina smiled. �I�m sure he wanted us to be a family Hiei.�
A serious look crossed Yusuke�s face. �He followed through on that too. We didn�t see him again until Mukuro sent word that you had been killed. You should have seen him Hiei. It tore me apart to see him cry.�
Grunting, Hiei rolled his eyes. �There�s no way that selfish fox cried for the likes of me.�
Now Yusuke was getting angry. �Damn it Hiei! Use the damn Jagan and see for yourself!�
Startled by Yusuke�s suggestion, Hiei looked at Yukina. At a nod from her, Hiei shrugged. �What do I care if you want to waste your time.�
Removing the ward they had had so much trouble putting on just the day before, Hiei easily controlled the Jagan. With little effort on his part, Hiei turned it on Yusuke.

Suddenly Hiei was in Shiori�s living room watching the human woman cry. When Kurama rushed in and saw Yusuke it was obvious from the look in his green eyes he knew something was wrong. When Yusuke moved toward him, there was fear in Kurama�s eyes as he backed away. �K�Kur�ama��
When Yusuke reached out, Kurama took another step back, shaking his head again. �No.�
As Yusuke took a deep breath, Hiei felt him clench his fists. �Kurama� it�s Hiei��
Still shaking his head, Kurama cut him off. �No! Don�t say it Yusuke! Don�t you dare. Not my H�Hiei.�
Hiei was surprised to hear Kurama�s voice break when he said his name. The obvious emotion in Kurama�s voice didn�t keep Yusuke from continuing. �I�m sorry Kurama. Mukuro sent word this morning. Hiei was k�killed in an explosion.�
Hiei couldn�t believe it when Kurama collapsed to his knees. Tears welled in his big green eyes as he looked up at Yusuke. Still shaking his head, Kurama shouted at him. �No! You�re lying! There has to be a mistake! I�d know it if anything happened to my Dragon!�
Kneeling before him, Yusuke reached out to stroke Kurama�s red hair. �I wish I were lying Kurama, but the message came directly from Mukuro.�
As tears spilled down Kurama�s cheeks, Hiei felt a familiar twinge of jealously when Yusuke reached out and pulled the redhead into his arm. Trembling, Kurama clung to him and cried softly. �H� he can�t be gone Yusuke. Not my sweet little H�Hiei. I need to tell him how so�sorry I am, and that I never meant to h�hurt him.�
With Kurama cradled in his arms, Yusuke let him cry. �Wh� what am I going to do Yusuke? How am I going to live without him? Oh gods, I�ve been such a fool. I thought if I let him go I couldn�t get h�hurt again. All I did was hurt us both. Now my precious Dragon is g�gone, and I can�t even tell him how much I love him.�
As Yusuke comforted the redhead, Hiei was even more surprised by intensity of the Toushin�s feelings at his loss. When Kurama�s tears finally stopped and he raised his head. �Does Yukina know?�
Tenderly, Yusuke brushed away Kurama�s tears as he nodded. �Only that he�s gone.�
Both men looked at each other a moment before Kurama spoke. �We should tell her the truth Yusuke. There�s no reason to keep his secret now. Besides, it will give her the closure she needs to finally stop looking for her brother.�
With a sigh, Yusuke nodded. �I agree, but I think you should be the one to tell her.�

Having seen enough, Hiei closed the Jagan and looked at his sister. �I never meant for you to find out like that.�
Yusuke almost laughed when Yukina gave Hiei an accusing look. �No, you never meant for me to find out at all. I�m glad Kurama had the courage to tell me the truth. I just wish I�d gotten a chance to apologize for being so mean to him that day. I was so caught up in my own grief, I didn�t consider that Kurama would be grieving too.�
Hiei grunted. �I�m sure you�re exaggerating Yukina. You�ve never been mean to anyone in your life.�
Yukina blushed when Yusuke chuckled. �You sure don�t know your sister very well Hiei. She can be one tough lady. Not only did she rip Kurama a new one for the way he treated you, she smacked him too.�
Hiei hid a smirk when Yukina snapped, making Yusuke cringe. �My behavior is not something to be proud of Yusuke! Kurama may have treated Hiei poorly, but there�s never been any doubt that he cared for him. He was so upset when he took off, I haven�t stopped worrying about him since.�
Hiei frowned. �What do you mean, he took off? Took off to where?�
Yusuke sighed. �He went to Makai Hiei. I chased him for weeks, but he was always one step ahead of me. All I found was the chaos he left in his wake. We�ve all heard tales of the mayhem Kurama caused back in his Youko days. Well I saw the destruction first hand. There were destroyed bars from drunken brawls, dead demons and missing treasures in every town I traced him to.�
Reaching for his hand, Yukina looked into Hiei�s eyes. �While you were resting, Kurama told us how he had finally gone to Mukuro to find out first hand what had happened to you. Hiei, he dug up your grave because he needed to see for himself that you were dead. When he realized the body in the grave wasn�t you, he began searching for you. You know what happened after that.�
Looking into his sister�s eyes, Hiei nodded. �He rescued me from the Morokie. We�ve been partners for a long time, and I�m not surprised he would rescue me. That does not mean he could ever love me. He�s still a Youko, as Yusuke saw for himself, and his first loyalty will always be to himself.�
When Yusuke would have defended Kurama further, Yukina shook her head. �Yusuke, Hiei has to reach his own conclusions. Brother, I hope after you�ve had a chance to think about what we�ve told you, you�ll give Kurama the benefit of the doubt. If nothing else, he�s been your friend and partner for a long time. That�s not something you should give up so easily. We�re going to go now and let you get some rest.�
Hiei remained silent until Yukina had kissed his cheek and left with Yusuke. When the door had closed and Hiei was alone, he whispered to the empty room. �Giving Kurama up was not something I did easily. It was the hardest thing I have ever done.�
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Though Hiei would have loved to return to Makai now that he was healed and strong again, he felt he owed it to Yukina to stay a while. Even he would have felt like a heal to come back from the dead then abandon his sister again. Over the week the twins spent time getting to know each other.
Though he spent some time up at the main house, Hiei preferred the solitude of his little house. The temple always seemed to be bustling with activity, especially since Yusuke and Keiko had moved into the other little house they had prepared for the wedding. This apparently happened right after he had been reported as dead and Yusuke was spending so much time in Makai looking for Kurama. Hiei could still barely tolerated Kuwabara�s presence, but at least he and Yusuke were always available to train with.
Tonight, the others had gone into town for what they called date night. Hiei used the time alone to clean his house. Not a chore he relished, but ever since he�d found Yukina cleaning up after him, he�d made the effort to do it himself. Now, Hiei stood at his open bedroom window enjoying the cool night air. Leaning on the sill, he breathed in the scent of the forest.
Suddenly, a small movement beneath the window caught his attention. At first Hiei thought it was some kind of rodent. It took him a moment to realize it was the golden eyes of a fox looking up at him. For a moment he just stared at the creature curled up beneath the bush under the window. Then suddenly he got mad. �Get the hell out of here you stupid fox!�
Shying away from the arms that waved him away, the silver fox scampered toward the forest. A moment later Hiei saw the fox sitting at the edge of the trees, his many tails swishing behind him. Annoyed, Hiei shouted. �Get lost Kurama! You�re not welcome here!�
Seeing the fox�s ears and tails go down at this harsh words, Hiei pushed away his guilt as he watched the dejected fox turned and walked away. Closing the window, Hiei didn�t see the fox watching from the forest until the lights went out, then slowly and quietly creep back to curl up beneath the bedroom window.
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