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AFRAID TO LOVE	By : ShioriFoxiesMom Category: Yuyu Hakusho > Yaoi - Male/Male > Hiei/Kurama Views: 8987 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter 13

Over the next few days, Hiei saw Kurama several more times. When he was training, golden eyes watching from the forest, and each night the silver fox slept beneath his window. Even though he chased the fox away, Hiei knew that hadn�t discouraged him. Today for example, he�d chased Kurama away this morning. Now he saw the fox�s golden eyes watching as he went up to the temple for dinner.
Hiei hadn�t mentioned the sightings to anyone, not wanting to upset Yukina, but hearing her comment when he arrived, he knew that was about to change. �Yusuke, maybe you should go to Makai and look for him.�
Yusuke shook his head. �I�ll send messages to Tourin, Alaric and Gandara first. Maybe someone has seen him. Damn, I wish Shiori had called sooner. When he didn�t answer my calls I thought he was just distancing himself again.�
Just then Kuwabara saw Hiei in the doorway. �As usual Shrimp, it�s probably your fault Kurama�s gone missing again. Shiori hasn�t heard him in almost a week.�
Hiei grunted. �Hn, I�m not his keeper you fool.�
Seeing her brother, Yukina rushed to his side. �Don�t listen to him Hiei, it�s nobody�s fault. Shiori said she had lunch with Kurama just last week. When he didn�t answer her calls the past few days, she went to his apartment and found the apartment empty. The landlord said he moved out over a week ago. Oh Hiei, I�m so worried.�
Putting his arm around her, Hiei sighed. �You don�t need to worry Yukina. Kurama�s fine. He�s been here at the temple for days. In fact I saw him just a few minutes ago.�
Excited, Yusuke almost shouted. �What do you mean he�s been here? Why haven�t we seen him?�
Keiko giggled. �Yusuke! I think he means Kurama�s been sneaking in to see him.�
Rolling his eyes, Hiei scoffed. �It�s not like you think woman. Come on, I�ll show you.�
Taking Yukina by the hand, Hiei led them out past the garden and stopped. �KURAMA! You might as well show yourself Fox! They know you�re here!�
All eyes turned at a rustle in the distance. A moment later, a multi-tailed silver fox stepped into the clearing. About fifteen feet away he stopped and sat down. Annoyed, Hiei scolded him. �I don�t know what game you�re playing Fox, but you have Yukina, Shiori and everyone else worrying about you again.�
As if in apology, the fox tucked back his ears. With a squeal, Yukina rushed forward. When Kurama ducked his head away as if flinching, Yukina stopped and dropped to her knees in front of him. �Oh Kurama, I�m so sorry. I shouldn�t have yelled at you the way I did and I never should have hit you. I know you would never do anything to intentionally hurt Hiei. Please, can you forgive me?�
Slowly moving forward, Kurama�s muzzle pressed against her hand. With a happy cry, Yukina petted and then hugged the fox. A moment later, Yusuke, Keiko and Kuwabara were beside him, welcoming him back. When things settled down again, the fox moved past his friends to look at Hiei hopefully. Hiei just shook his head. �Don�t think I�m going to forgive you so easily Kurama. You forget, I know first hand what a bastard you really are.�
With his fox ears flattened against his head again, Kurama turned away and dashed into the trees. The moment he did, Yusuke turned on Hiei. �Couldn�t you cut him just a little slack Hiei? Doesn�t what we told you the other day mean anything to you? Damn it man, Kurama loves you!�
Hiding his own disappointment at Kurama�s sudden departure, Hiei shook his head. �He doesn�t love me Detective, he loves the attention all of this is getting him. You all seem to forget he�s a Youko. By nature he�s a selfish, conceited, vain, arrogant, egotistical, narcissist. He doesn�t want love or me, just sex. Well, I won�t be the one to sate that desire any more.�
Without another word, Hiei stormed off. He didn�t get far though before Yukina caught up with him. �Hiei, please don�t leave. I�ve just found you and I don�t want to lose you again.�
With a sigh, Hiei turned to her. �I�ll be here a few more days, then I have to return to Makai. I have responsibilities there that I can�t avoid much longer.�
With a smile, Yukina took his hand and wove their fingers together. �So long as you promise to visit me often, that�s okay.�
Together they walked toward his house. �Of course I�ll visit you Yukina. You can come visit me at Alaric as well.�
After deciding to forgo dinner, the twins spent the evening in Hiei�s living room talking. When Yukina rose to leave, she finally broached the one subject they had avoided. �Hiei, what are you going to do about Kurama?�
When he answered, Hiei�s voice lost it�s previous softness. �I�m not going to do anything about him Yukina. When I return to Makai he�ll give up on his newest game.�
Frowning, Yukina asked. �What game Hiei?�
Hiei shrugged. �I wish I knew. He�s been in his fox form watching me for days. Go see for yourself. He�s probably under my bedroom window right now. That�s where he sleeps.�
After giving him an odd look, Yukina went to the bedroom and opened the window. Sure enough, there was Kurama curled up under the window. His golden eyes simply looked up at her. With a smile, Yukina whispered. �You really do love him, don�t you Kurama?�
The only answer was a swish of his many tails. Interpreting that as a �yes�, Yukina�s smile grew. �I knew you did. Please don�t give up on him Kurama. I think he still loves you too.�
Yukina turned when Hiei appeared at her side. She cringed at his harsh tone. �See, I told you he would be here. Now get out of here Kurama! Go home to your mother! With her here in the Ningenkai is where you�d rather be anyways.�
With sad eyes, Yukina watched Kurama scurry away only to stop at the edge of the trees to watch them. �Hiei, that was mean. The forest will be cold tonight. Are you just going to leave him out there to freeze?�
With a grunt, Hiei closed the window. �Hn. Don�t worry, he�ll be back. I�ll find him under the window in the morning. Besides, he�s wearing a fur coat.�
With a flip of her hair, Yukina gave him a grunt of her own. �Hn. A real friend would leave the window open so he could come in from the cold. That is what Kurama has always done for you, isn�t it Hiei?�
Even knowing she was trying to lay a guilt trip on him, Hiei was surprised when it worked. He didn�t open the window though. �Maybe next time he�ll be more careful choosing his friends.�
Realizing she wouldn�t win, Yukina kissed his cheek and bid him good night. Opting for a cool shower since the window would remain closed, Hiei striped out of his clothes and headed for the bathroom. Afterwards, dressed only in boxer shorts, Hiei looked at his bed.
No matter how he argued with himself, he couldn�t resist the urge to look out the window. Sure enough, Kurama was curled up under the window. Judging from the way his many tails fanned out over him like a blanket, he must be cold. Pushing away the temptation to open the window, Hiei crawled in his bed with a growl. �Stupid Fox.�
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It was a week later before Yukina finally gave Hiei permission to leave. Nothing had really changed between him and Kurama in that week. Kurama still watched him from the shadows, and Hiei continually chased him away. Other than the one night though, Kurama avoided any contact with his other friends. As Hiei flitted away, they saw the silver fox run after him. Curious, Keiko looked at the others. �Does anyone know why Kurama is staying in his fox form?�
They all shrugged and shook their heads, but it was Yusuke who speculated. �Knowing Kurama, he�s probably trying to wear Hiei down. It�s kind of funny that Hiei tries to shoo Kurama away, but as a fox, he hasn�t picked an actual fight with him.�
Kuwabara frowned. �How long do you think Kurama can keep this up? For that matter, I wonder how long Hiei will be able to keep resisting.�
Yukina giggled. �If anyone can wear Hiei down it�s Kurama. He seems pretty determined, so I don�t think he�ll give up any time soon. As for Hiei, he�s not resisting very hard or he would have put up wards and traps to keep Kurama away.�
Just then the phone rang and Kuwabara swore. �Aw hell, that�s probably Shiori.�
Running inside, Yusuke picked up the phone. �Hi Shiori, it�s Yusuke� Yes, Kurama�s fine� No, he took a trip to Makai with Hiei� No, but Kurama�s still trying to work things out with him. Hopefully this trip will be the turning point� Yes, I�ll let you know the minute we hear from him� Bye.�
Hanging up the phone, Yusuke breathed a big sigh. �Well, that should take care of her for a while. Let�s hope there�s good news the next time she calls.�
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Hiei felt Kurama follow him all the way to Alaric. After that Hiei hadn�t seen hide nor hair of the fox. Nor had he heard any reports of the Youko�s presence in Makai. Thinking Kurama had finally given up and gone back to the Ningenkai, Hiei had returned to work. It was almost a month later when Hiei went out on an assignment that his assumption had been proven wrong.
In the southern region of Mukuro�s territory there were reports of a band of demons extorting money from the local villagers. After confirming the reports, Hiei dispatched a messenger to the captain of the region�s patrol to report to him at the local pub.
Hiei knew something was wrong the moment Captain Kahn entered the pub. Before the door could close behind him, the pub�s patrons began to scatter. Hiei had suspected the captain, but had no proof. By meeting him here in public, the unwittingly villagers gave him the proof he needed. �So, it is you that�s been extorting money from these villagers. Mukuro trusted you to enforce her laws, not break them.�
The captain laughed. �That bitch didn�t trust me to do the laundry. That�s why she stuck me down here in the sticks. With you gone, all discipline in your army was gone, so we all had to fend for ourselves. Mukuro�s answer was to assign officers she didn�t trust as far away from her as she could. If you think this is the only corruption going on in your army, you�re in for a rude awakening Hiei.�
Hiei had seen and dealt with other signs of corruption amongst his men since he�d returned, but not on this level. �I�ll deal with them in good time. Right now I�m dealing with you. You used to be a good soldier Kahn so I�m going to give you two options. I can either strip you of your officer�s rank and send you back to the troops, or present you to Mukuro to punish you for your crimes. Since no one died, you�d be free at the end of your sentence.�
Kahn sneered. �Since neither of those options appeals to me, I�ll take option three. I�m going to resign and walk out of here free and clear right now.�
Sensing a fight, Hiei�s hand hovered near his katana. �Unfortunately Kahn, option one and two were for breaking Mukuro�s laws. Option three is death for defying me.�
In the blink of an eye, Hiei drew his katana and flew at Kahn. Anticipating the move, Kahn threw an electrical charge at Hiei. Dodging the attack, Hiei flitted out of the way as the front wall of the pub exploded from the impact. When Hiei�s next attack came even faster, Kahn was forced to flee out the front of the pub. This turned out to be a fatal mistake.
Kahn hadn�t gone six feet when he was suddenly entangled in the leaves of a large plant. Hiei stopped cold at Kahn�s terrified screams as the plant�s acid-like sap dissolved his flesh and bones. Within two minutes, Kahn was gone as well as the plant. The only remaining evidence was a seed laying in the road.
Looking around, Hiei spotted Kurama sitting only a few yards away. The silver fox simply inclined his head in acknowledgement of the fire demon, then disappeared. Before Hiei could go after him, the pub owner and several of the villagers appeared and began thanking him for freeing them from Captain Kahn�s tyranny. After impatiently dealing with all of their questions and concerns, Hiei paid the pub owner for the damages and flitted away.
For the next few hours, Hiei tried to find Kurama but to no avail. Finally giving up, Hiei returned to Alaric to give Mukuro his report on Captain Kahn.
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Over the next few months, Hiei took control of his army. Any corruption, insubordination or lack of discipline was dealt with swiftly, firmly and sometimes deadly. He also traveled to every corner of Mukuro�s territory dealing with any of his officers that had chosen to stray from their assigned duties or orders. At these time is when Kurama would make his presence known.
If anyone, officer or otherwise fought with Hiei, Kurama was right there. Sometimes the fox just watched from a distance. If at any time he felt Hiei needed backup, Kurama�s plants sprung to life and came to his aid. Kurama however, remained in his fox form and stayed far enough away that Hiei never caught up with him.
Once he was sure his army could maintain itself again, Hiei took leave. Telling himself that he was simply fulfilling his promise to Yukina, Hiei headed for the Ningenkai. Once there, he went straight to the temple. At first he thought no one was there, then he found Yukina in the garden. �Brother! I�m so glad you�re home. I missed you.�
Returning her ardent hug, Hiei replied. �I missed you too Little Sister.�
Beaming at the unusual familiarity, Yukina dragged him inside to the kitchen. �You must be hungry. Tell me everything you�ve been doing while I fix you something to eat.�
Dutifully, Hiei told her of the corruption in his army since his alleged death and the measures he�d gone to in order to restore discipline. When he finished and was eating the meal she put before him, Hiei listened as she told him what had been happening in his absence. �Keiko�s father has been sick, so she and Yusuke moved back to town to help Mrs. Ukimora in the ramen shop. Kazuma has been helping Shizuru fix the damage to her house after the earthquake we had last week. Don�t worry, it wasn�t bad and nothing here was damaged.�
Finishing his food, Hiei knew he was about to start a whole new line of questions. �Have you heard from Shiori?�
The look on her face told Hiei that his sister had been waiting for an opportunity to ask about Kurama. �It�s been four months now Hiei, she�s worried sick about Kurama. He�s with you, isn�t he? Is he alright?�
Hiei nodded. �He�s fine Yukina. He still keeps his distance, but he�s always there watching over me. His evil plants have helped me out in a few fights though. Now that we�re back here he�ll probably go see her.�
Yukina sighed. �I hope so Hiei. She calls or comes by at least twice a week hoping we�ve heard something.�
Unknowingly, Yukina had just answered Hiei�s biggest question. Kurama had been with him in Makai the whole time without returning to see his mother. �Yukina, wait until morning before you call Shiori. If he hasn�t been to see her by then, you�d better let her know he�s alright.�
Nodding, Yukina picked up his plate to wash it. �That�s a good idea Hiei, but I�d like to call Yusuke tonight. We�ve all been worried about you both.�
As he stood up, Yukina came into his arms for another hug. �I will always worry about you Hiei, but at least I can worry a little less since I know Kurama is watching out for you.�
Hiei�s voice was tense when he responded. �Eventually you�ll have to learn to trust me, because Kurama won�t always be there. Sooner or later he�ll give up on his little game and go back to his human life.�
Pushing out of his arms, Yukina glared at him. �I don�t believe you Hiei. Kurama�s trying to show you that he loves you and that he�ll be there for you and all you can do is call it a game. I know you love him Hiei. Why can�t you trust him, just a little?�
Avoiding her gaze so she couldn�t see just how much he wanted to, Hiei answered. �You know what happened the last time I trusted him Yukina. I won�t be foolish enough to do it again. Now, I�m going to go take a shower. I�ll see you in the morning.�
Giving her a quick kiss on the cheek, Hiei made his escape. Near his house he saw Kurama watching in the distance. Annoyed, Hiei yelled. �Damn you Fox! Leave me alone! Go see your mother! She wants you, I don�t!�
Head down, Kurama turned away. Not understanding the ache in his chest, Hiei stormed into his house and slammed the door.
An hour later, after a long hot shower, Hiei gave in to the urge to look out the bedroom window. Sure enough, Kurama appeared to be sound asleep in his usual spot. Telling himself he was too tired to argue with the fox tonight, Hiei went to bed. Outside the window, Kurama�s tail swished in satisfaction before he finally fell asleep.
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