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AFRAID TO LOVE	By : ShioriFoxiesMom Category: Yuyu Hakusho > Yaoi - Male/Male > Hiei/Kurama Views: 8988 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Wow, three (or is it four?) quick updates in a row. I�m on a roll. There�s nothing like four hours in the car driving back and forth to Phoenix for a baseball game to give me time to write. I do love my Diamondbacks, especially when they win (which isn�t often these days).
I�m glad everyone is enjoying this so far. I�m actually trying to wind this up soon. You might have noticed I haven�t been much in the mood to write lemons lately, but I promise one before this is over. Besides, everyone knows make up lemons are the best.
Thanks everyone for the great reviews. You should know by now they are what keep me writing, so keep them coming.

Chapter 14

The next morning, when Hiei went to the temple, he found his friends in the kitchen. Yusuke was just hanging up the phone. �I�m not sure that was helpful. Since Kurama didn�t contact her, Shiori�s on her way here.�
Taking a seat, Hiei grunted. �Hn. Maybe she can get that stupid fox to stop following me around.�
Hiei frowned when Keiko giggled. �Sorry Hiei, but it�s just too cute. Kurama�s so in love with you that he�s following you around like a love sick puppy.�
Slamming his hands down on the table, Yusuke shouted. �Keiko! Don�t call Kurama a puppy! That�s not it at all! Kurama�s a fighter trying to protect and win his chosen mate!�
Hiei was about to argue when Kuwabara interrupted. �No, you�re both wrong. Kurama�s bound to Hiei with� THE PINKY STRING OF LOVE! Just like me and my Yukina.�
Feeling like he�d been transported to the land of the fools, Hiei groaned. �Idiots! All of you! It has nothing to do with love or wanting me for his mate, and there sure as hell isn�t some stupid string binding us together. Kurama�s just an annoying fox playing a game. He�s a YOUKO after all!�
This time it was Yukina that giggled. �Well, what ever he�s doing, I�ll bet he�s hungry. One of you go out there and see if you can get him to at least come eat with us.�
Right away, Yusuke volunteered. �I�ll do it.�
Hiei grunted. �Don�t hold your breath Detective. Kurama keeps his distance.�
Turning, Yusuke grinned. �What�s the matter Hiei? Afraid Kurama will come to me and not you?�
As Yusuke went outside, the room went silent as everyone waited for Hiei�s reaction. When Hiei froze and didn�t react, Kuwabara jumped up. �Well I want to see who wins this battle.�
Looking at Hiei, Keiko hesitated just a moment before she gave in to temptation. �Sorry Hiei. I�m curious too.�
Seeing the guilty look in his sister�s eyes, Hiei grunted. �You might as will go too Yukina.�
Coming around the counter, Yukina stood beside him. �Admit it Hiei, you�d like to see Yusuke fail, wouldn�t you?�
When two sets of ruby eyes met, Hiei knew he couldn�t hide the truth from her. With a sigh, he rose and followed her out. On the porch, Kuwabara and Keiko were chuckling. With a smile, Keiko looked at Hiei. �Looks like you might be right Hiei. Every time Yusuke gets close, Kurama dances away.�
In the distance they could hear Yusuke shouting. �Aw come on Kurama! I just want to talk to you!�
Thinking Kurama would finally let him close, Yusuke chased after him. Just as Keiko said though, the moment Yusuke got close, Kurama looked like he danced away. After three more attempts, Yusuke threw his hands up. �Damn it Kurama! Go hungry for all I care!�
When Yusuke loped back to them, Hiei made no attempt to hide his smirk. Annoyed, Yusuke growled. �Don�t gloat Hiei. Remember, he won�t talk to you either.�
Giggling at them, Yukina and Keiko went back inside to finish breakfast. By the time they had finished eating, Shiori arrived. After a quick greeting to everyone and a hug to welcome Hiei back, Shiori begged. �Hiei please, where is my son?�
Looking a little nervous, Hiei sighed. �Kurama�s not exactly himself right now. He�s��
Uncharacteristically, Shiori interrupted him. �Hiei, I don�t care, he�s my son. Besides, I�ve already seen him in his Youko form. Please, just take me to him.�
Having an unusual soft spot for the human women, Hiei nodded. �Follow me, but don�t say I didn�t try to warn you.�
As Shiori went with Hiei, Yusuke and Kuwabara tried to follow. At a flare of his energy, Hiei�s friends stopped in their tracks. Leading her outside, Hiei headed for his house. When they got close, Hiei turned and called to the forest. �Come on out Kurama, or are you going to keep upsetting Shiori with your little game!�
Confused, Shiori was about to question Hiei when a rustle from the forest drew her attention. Turning, she saw a silver fox step into the clearing. Her first thought was how beautiful it was. Then she noticed it�s many tails and knew this was no ordinary fox. �Shuuichi?�
Hiei grunted. �Hn. You�re smarter than I gave you credit for.�
At Kurama�s growl in defense of his mother, Hiei smirked. �What�s the matter Fox? If you don�t like me insulting your mother, then come tell me yourself.�
Indecisively, Kurama pace a few times as if contemplating his next move before sitting down where he�d been. Hiei just shook his head. �What�s your problem Fox? Even for Shiori, you won�t stop your game and change forms?�
Ignoring him, Shiori moved a few steps closer, then went down on one knee. �Shuuichi, what is this game Hiei says you�re playing? And why are you staying a fox?�
Golden eyes looked momentarily at Hiei before the fox went to Shiori. Without hesitation, she held out her hand and Kurama allowed her to pet him. For a moment golden eyes held her in an intense gaze. Suddenly, Shiori gasped. �Hiei, why does it feel like Shuuichi just spoke to me?�
Behind her Shiori couldn�t see Hiei�s shocked look that Kurama had spoken to her and not him. �In this form his telepathic ability is very strong.�
Nodding, Shiori looked closely at Kurama. Hiei watched as the two stared into each other�s eyes for several moments. He grew annoyed when, even with the Jagan, Kurama was able to block him from eavesdrop on their conversation. It seemed they were finished when Kurama moved forward and gave Shiori�s cheek a little lick. There was a big smile on her face when Shiori stood up and waved as Kurama loped back into the forest.
She was still smiling when she turned to Hiei. �It�s funny, I know that�s Shuuichi, yet it�s not. I feel so much better though now that I�ve talked to him.�
Hiei grunted. �Since he won�t talk to me, did he at least tell you what kind of game he�s playing and when he�s gong to leave me alone?�
Hiding her pleasure at how jealous he sounded, Shiori shook her head. �You have it all wrong Hiei. He�s not playing a game and he�s not going to give up. Shuuichi just feels this is the only way he can stay close to you right now. Hiei, I know he hurt you, but I truly believe he�s sorry and would like a chance to make it up to you. He was so sad after you left after the wedding. Then we were told you were dead. Hiei, I�ve never seen my son cry like that. As if his heart was truly breaking. He ran away after that, and now that he�s found you again, he won�t leave you, even to come see me.�
Trying to hide his look of uncertainty, Hiei turned away. �Like all his other games, he�ll tire of this eventually. He�s just being stubborn because he hasn�t gotten what he wants yet.�
A soft hand rested on Hiei�s shoulder as Shiori whispered in his ear. �This one�s different Hiei, because what he wants is you.�
Not waiting for him to answer, Shiori walked back up to the temple. Hiei stood there for some time before turning to look out to the forest. Sure enough, he saw golden eyes peering back at him. There was no anger in Hiei�s voice this time when he called out. In fact, he sounded almost sad. �What the hell do you want from me Kurama?�
When Kurama took a hesitant step forward, Hiei turned and walked away.
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Hiei kept to himself the rest of the day. He only went to the temple for dinner for Yukina�s sake. His friends seemed to notice Hiei was more quiet than usual and left him alone. Afterwards, Hiei sat at the table while everyone cleaned up. He didn�t even notice when Yukina motioned for the others to leave them alone. Setting her dishtowel aside, Yukina sat across from Hiei. �Brother, what�s bothering you tonight? Did something happen when you were with Kurama and Shiori?�
Looking around, Hiei suddenly realized they were alone. After a moment he spoke softly. �Shiori says that Kurama is here because he wants to be near me. She says he wants me. All of you say he loves me. How can I believe any of it. For years Kurama has said he doesn�t believe in love. He�s always called our time together a game that he invites me to play. I don�t know what to do. I don�t know what to believe.�
With her heart aching for him, Yukina reached out to hold his hands. Seeing his uneasy look at her show of affection, she smiled. �I understand how hard this is for you Hiei. You�ve never known the kind of love we offer you. I�ve never been hurt the way you have so it�s easy for me to reach out to you, hug you and even kiss you. As your sister I�m no threat to you so you allow me to. It�s different with Kurama though. At first you accepted him as your partner and lover, but now you have real feelings for him and it�s harder to accept him since he hurt you.�
Allowing her to continue, Hiei just nodded. �I don�t know what to tell you Hiei other than to give it time. If you still love him, and you want him back, give him the chance to prove himself to you. In his own way, he�s reaching out to you. If you keep rejecting him though, eventually he�ll give up. You need to reach out to him too.�
Hiei frowned. �How do I do that without him taking advantage of it?�
After thinking a minute, Yukina stood up. Going to the fridge, she pulled out a plate of leftover chicken from dinner. �This would make a nice peace offering.�
Taking it from her, he was about to leave when he turned and whispered. �Thank you Little Sister.�
With a huge smile at the endearment, Yukina kissed his cheek. �You are very welcome Big Brother.�
Leaving her, Hiei headed toward his house. The closer he got though, the more uncertain he got. He was just wondering how he was going to give Kurama the chicken, when he saw the fox watching him. When he reached the porch, Hiei hesitated. After a moment he turned to look at Kurama. �Yukina thought you might be hungry.�
After setting the plate down on the porch, Hiei went inside. He didn�t see the happy gleam in Kurama�s golden eyes as he hopped on the porch to see what was for dinner.
Inside, Hiei flipped channels on the television Yusuke had insisted he needed. Bored after only an hour, he went to take a shower. On his way to bed, Hiei first looked out the front window to see the plate was empty. Then after turning off the lights, he peered out the bedroom window to find Kurama curled up in his usual spot. Golden eyes looked back at him a moment, then the fox laid his head down. Content, Hiei went to bed.
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Though Hiei stopped chasing Kurama away after his talk with Yukina, he still wasn�t inviting him closer. The one way Hiei did relent was through the dinner he brought the fox every night. After a few nights Hiei began to find Kurama waiting on the porch for him. The two would simply stare at each other a moment before Hiei would set the plate down and go inside.
After that, Hiei noticed the silver fox began to move closer than he had before. Unsure how he felt about having Kurama so close, Hiei made no move to drive him back nor did he speak to him. It wasn�t until a storm that came in from the nearby ocean dropping the temperature and starting a downpour did anything change.
With his cloak pulled over him, Hiei flitted quickly from the temple to his house one night to find Kurama huddled on the porch trying to stay dry. Pulling a plastic container from his cloak, Hiei uncovered it and set it down close to the fox, but for a change he didn�t go straight inside. �It�s just fish tonight.�
After an awkward pause, Hiei added. �You�d better find some place dry for the night Fox. This storm is supposed to get worse by morning.�
The only acknowledgement Kurama gave was an inclination of his head. With a sigh, Hiei went inside. When the lights wouldn�t go on, Hiei knew the storm must have taken the power out. Accustomed to the dark, Hiei shook off his cloak and raised his ki to dry himself. Not relishing the idea of showering in the dark, he went into the bedroom and sprawled out on the bed.
Grateful that he wasn�t out in this storm, Hiei�s thoughts turned to Kurama. Knowing the fox had a den close by, Hiei tried to justify not offering him shelter from the storm. With nothing else to do, Hiei rose and undressed for bed. After dutifully brushing his teeth the way Kurama taught him, he pulled the covers back on the bed. Guilt however kept him from climbing in. Countless times over the years, Kurama had welcomed him in, storm or no storm.
Wrestling with himself, Hiei finally huffed and went to the front door. When he didn�t find Kurama on the porch, Hiei thought he must have holed up in his den to ride out the storm. Going back to the bedroom, Hiei was about to climb in again when another thought crossed his mind. He tried to ignore it for a moment before giving in and going to the window.
Sure enough there was Kurama, huddled up under the window. Annoyed, Hiei was about to leave him there when he noticed the fox shiver. Guilt finally took over and Hiei opened the window and snatched the wet fox up by the scruff. After closing the window, Hiei carried the fox to the bathroom. There, he set him on the closed lid of the toilet and reached for a towel.
As he towel dried the fox, Hiei growled. �Stupid Fox. Even if you wouldn�t brave the rain to get to your den, you could have at least stayed on the damn porch. Now look at you. You�re soaking wet and freezing cold. What the hell were you thinking?�
Picking Kurama up in his arms this time, Hiei raised his ki to warm the fox as he went back to the bedroom. Cradled in Hiei�s arms, Kurama nuzzled his face against the fire demon�s neck. Hiei frowned when the little sign of affection caused a fluttering in his heart. As soon as he was sure Kurama was warm and dry, Hiei looked around trying to decide what to do with him.
Seeing the folded futon that Kurama had put by his bed for Shiori�s visit all those months ago, Hiei dumped the fox unceremoniously on it. �Don�t get any ideas Fox. I�m just repaying a debt. Now, let�s get some sleep.�
After a happy yip from Kurama which Hiei interpreted as a thanks, Hiei finally crawled in his bed. Turning his back on the fox, Hiei started to pull the covers over himself. With a frustrated sigh, Hiei grabbed one of the blankets and threw it over Kurama. Turning away, Hiei settled in and fell asleep surprisingly quickly. Beside him, Kurama moved into a comfortable position with his nose poking out from under the blanket and did the same.
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As predicted, the storm was severe, virtually stranding them in Hiei�s house. On the second day a bundled up Yukina showed up on the doorstep with food for them. Angry that she had endangered herself for him, Hiei swept her up in his arms and flitted her back to the safety of the temple. Practically ordering her to stay put, Hiei told her he and Kurama could take care of themselves until the storm was over.
Ignoring everyone�s obvious pleasure that he had finally welcomed Kurama in, Hiei flitted home in a huff. Arriving at his house, he found the fox waiting for him with a towel in his mouth. Snatching the towel away, Hiei snapped. �When the hell are you going to stop this Kurama? Once you got inside I expected you to change forms and either try to seduce me or at least talk to me.�
The fox�s head dropped in a look of defeat as Kurama walked to the door. Jumping up with his front paws on the door, Kurama used his teeth to awkwardly open it. When Hiei realized the fox was about to go out in the storm, he reached out and slammed the door shut. �Damn it Kurama! Why do you have to be so stubborn?�
When Kurama retreated from the door, Hiei sighed and went into the bedroom. As if knowing he should give his friend space, Kurama curled up in front of the fire. The previous morning, Hiei had lit the fire without a word. Kurama had known the fire was for him though, since the fire demon could generate his own heat.
After a while, Hiei came out to see what Yukina had brought them to eat. Seeing Kurama by the fire, Hiei tossed him a piece of chicken. Without any effort, Kurama caught it. Silently the two ate. Since the power had come back on, Hiei then turned on the television. That night, just as he had the night before, Kurama stayed by the fire until Hiei was asleep. Then he snuck into the bedroom and hopped up on the futon to sleep near Hiei.
The next day when the storm finally abated, Hiei prepared to go up to the temple for lunch. The moment he opened the door, Kurama slipped passed him and hopped off the porch. When Hiei headed in the direction of the temple, Kurama lowered his head and turned toward the forest. Suddenly Hiei stopped and called out. �You might as well come too Fox. I�m sure Shiori will want to know how you weathered the storm.�
From the way his ears perked up Kurama was obviously happy with Hiei�s words. Dropping into step beside him, Kurama went to the temple with Hiei. The moment they arrived, they were greeted by their excited friends. Knowing this would make Hiei uncomfortable, Yukina intervened. �Alright everyone, leave them alone. I�m sure Hiei and Kurama are hungry.�
Kuwabara got a bit upset when Yukina set the fox a place at the table. �Yukina! Animals eat on the floor, not at the table.�
The silence was deafening when the temperature in the room rose. Kuwabara swallowed as he waited for Hiei�s reaction. It came in the form of a growl. �Kurama is not an animal you fool! Even as a fox he�s less of an animal than you.�
Wisely, Kuwabara moved closer to Yukina and remained silent. Kurama however had a mind of his own and snatched a sandwich off the counter then slipped out the door. Though there were a few chuckles at his actions, no one commented as they sat down to eat.
As they finished lunch, Kurama appeared in the doorway. Seeing him, Hiei turned to Yusuke. �Since that stupid fox insists on following me everywhere, you�d better call Shiori and tell her we�re leaving for Makai today.�
A yip from Kurama was interpreted by all as a sign of approval. Following instructions, Yusuke called Shiori. �Hey Shiori, it�s Yusuke� Hiei asked me to call and let you know that he and Kurama are heading back to Makai today. Kurama doesn�t want you to worry and says that he�ll see you when they get back� Yes, I�ll tell them. Bye.�
When he hung up, Yusuke turned to his friends. �Shiori sends you both her love and says to be careful.�
Yusuke frowned when Hiei just glared at him before leaving the room. Not sure what had upset her brother, Yukina rushed after him. In the kitchen Kuwabara and Keiko watched confused as Yusuke gave Kurama a curious look. A moment later Yusuke sighed. �You really haven�t talked to Hiei in all this time? I hope you know what you�re doing Kurama. Hiei didn�t seem too pleased that you talked to me. From what I understand you talked to Shiori the other day too.�
Kurama yipped again and Yusuke chuckled. �You�d better get going Kurama or Hiei might leave without you.�
Everyone followed Kurama outside. As he joined Hiei, Keiko called out. �You two take care of each other. Yukina and Shiori aren�t the only ones who care about you and worry you know.�
After turning to wave in acknowledgement, Hiei walked away with the silver fox at his side. When they were out of sight, Kuwabara turned to the others. �The shrimp seems to be coming around. Do you think they�ll be alright?�
Yusuke shrugged. �I hope so. Kurama seemed pretty encouraged.�
Yukina nodded. �If Kurama continues to remain loyal to him, he may have Hiei won over by the time they get back. He�d better start talking to Hiei soon though. He�s pretty hurt at being left out.�
Little did they know that by the time they had crossed over into Makai, Hiei had already made up his mind to talk to Kurama until he finally talked back. �Well Fox, it�s just you and me now. What do you think about a real bath before we head to Alaric?�
Excited, the fox barked, ran ahead, then turned back to bark at Hiei again. �Damn, Yusuke female was right. You do dance.�
When Kurama barked again and danced around him, Hiei chuckled. �Alright you crazy fox. Lead the way. I�m sure you�ve got a den around here some where. And where ever your dens are, there is usually a good place to take a bath.�
Together, the two set off into Makai.
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