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Chapter List
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OMG I can�t believe how hard this has been to write. I�ve had the time, just not any inspiration. I finally gave up on finishing this in one chapter. There isn�t much left, just a short ending and an epilog. I�ll bet my regular readers will figure out where that�s going.
Oh well, at least this chapter�s a little longer than the last few have been. Sorry for taking so long. Enjoy and please leave a review. I just love hearing from all of you. I�m surprised to see so many new readers. Thank you everyone for reading, and I�ll try to have the last chapter up soon.

Chapter 16

When Kurama�s voice fell silent, Hiei was too afraid to feel for his heartbeat. Rising with the fox in his arms, Hiei ran faster than he ever had before. At first his intention was to get him to Alaric, but a few miles away, the Jagan picked up traces of a portal to the Ningenkai. Knowing that if this were the end, Kurama would rather be with his family and friends, Hiei changed direction.
Concentrating the power of the Jagan, Hiei ripped open the portal and flew through it. It wasn�t easy, but Hiei managed to use his power to direct them as close to the temple as he could. The moment he touched ground in the Ningenkai, Hiei�s mind cried out for Yukina.
Walking in the market with Keiko, Yukina suddenly gripped her friend�s arm to keep from falling to her knees. When Keiko turned, she was startled by the fear in Yukina�s eyes. �It�s my brother! Kurama�s dying! Get Yusuke and Kazuma quick! Get Shiori too! I�m going to the temple!�
Having never seen the Koorime use her demon powers for anything but healing, Keiko gasped when Yukina flitted away with a speed that would make her brother proud. Not wasting any time, Keiko reached for her cell phone as she ran for the car.
Running faster than she ever had, Yukina made it to the temple in just over a half an hour. Feeling for Hiei�s ki, she raced towards her brother�s house. In the bedroom, Yukina found Hiei sitting on the bed cradling the silver fox�s limp body against his chest with his face pressed into the fur on Kurama neck. Her heart broke when Hiei whispered a desperate plea. �Please �Kina, you have to br�bring him back. Ku�rama can�t die. Sh� Shiori needs him. The de�tective and the oaf would be lost without him.�
As her brother�s big ruby eyes finally looked up at her, Yukina saw a single tear slip down his cheek and form a perfect tear gem as it fell to the floor. �I� I need him too.�
Thinking she was too late, Yukina�s heart sank when she saw Botan hovering behind Hiei in the corner of the room. She was dressed in her pink reaper�s kimono. The one she only wears now when she collects souls of the dead to take to Reikai. With tears in her eyes, Botan looked at Yukina as her lips silently formed a single word. �Hurry.�
Eyes wide, Yukina rushed forward. Ignoring Hiei�s surprise, Yukina snatched Kurama away from him and laid the fox on the bed. Laying one hand over the wound on his chest and the other directly over his heart, Yukina concentrated her energy on trying to heal the wound while checking for a heartbeat. At first she felt nothing, then suddenly there was the faintest flutter of a heartbeat.
With how weak the beat was, Yukina knew Kurama would need to fight for his life if there were any chance he would survive. Trying not to lose her primary focus of healing Kurama�s wounds, she growled to Hiei through clenched teeth. �Hiei! Talk to him! Give him a reason to live!�
Stunned by her words, it took Hiei a moment to comprehend what she said. Moving around her, Hiei crawled on the bed to lean down and whisper into Kurama�s ear. �Kurama! Don�t leave me Fox. You promised you would stay with me and protect me. You said you loved me. Prove it Kurama. If you love me you�ll stay here and fight for me.�
Not sure his words were enough, Hiei�s fingers moved to scratch the sensitive spot behind the fox�s ears. �I meant it when I said I don�t want a pet. What I want is my best friend and lover back. I don�t want you following me around either. I want you by my side. I lied about no needing you Kurama. I do need you, because I love you.�
Terrified his words weren�t getting through, Hiei looked up at Yukina. Behind her he could see the anxious faces of their friends, and Shiori was softly crying in Kuwabara�s arms. When Yusuke saw his own fear reflected in Hiei�s eyes, he moved forward. Hiei was surprised when Yusuke�s fear turned to anger. �Don�t even think about it Botan! If you try to take him, you�ll have to go through me!�
Realizing Yusuke was looking behind him, Hiei turned. Seeing Botan hovering behind him, Hiei growled. Before he could do more however, Yukina grabbed his wrist. �It�s alright Brother. See for your self.�
Taking Hiei�s hand, Yukina guided it over Kurama�s heart. Sure enough there was a faint heartbeat and Hiei could hear his shallow, uneven breathing. Relieved beyond words, Hiei gently buried his face in Kurama�s neck. Only when he had regained his composure did he look up again. �Yukina, something�s still wrong. When Kurama is badly hurt or weak, he doesn�t have the strength to maintain either of his demon forms and he�s forced back to his weaker human form.�
Nodding, Yukina sighed. �I know, but even that still takes energy. This time, he was so close to death, I don�t think he had even enough energy for that. He�s still dangerously weak. My energy went to healing him, why don�t you feed him ki and let�s see what happens.�
Nodding, Hiei gathered the fox close and surrounded him with warm fire demon ki. Several minutes passed before there was any response from Kurama. At first the fox�s breath steadied. Then his heartbeat grew a little stronger. After a few more minutes, Hiei smirked when blood red streaks appeared in the fox�s silver fur. Suddenly there was a cry from Shiori when she saw her redheaded son cradled in Hiei�s arms. �Shuuichi!�
Pulling herself away from Kuwabara, Shiori hurried to the side of the bed. Seeing her look at him and hesitate, Hiei nodded. The moment she had his consent, Shiori carefully hugged her son and pressed a gentle kiss to his cheek. Seeing Hiei�s discomfort, Keiko took pity on him. �Shiori, let�s go up to the main house and we�ll make some tea. That will give Hiei a chance to get Kurama settled in bed.�
Reluctantly releasing her son, Shiori smiled at Hiei. The fire demon�s eyes widened in shock when Shiori leaned over to kiss his cheek too. Knowing she didn�t need words to convey her gratitude for him taking care of her son, Shiori followed Keiko.
Seeing Botan�s tear streaked face, Yusuke held out a hand to her. �Come on Botan. You look like you could use a shot of something stronger than tea.�
Ignoring his outstretched hand, Botan wrapped her arms around him. �Oh Yusuke, it was just awful. I thought I was going to have to take another of my friends to Reikai. The only thing worse about taking Genkai was the fact that I had to take her twice.�
With Shiori taken care of and the room cleared, Kuwabara was finally able to get to his wife. Sweeping her up in his arms, the big man kissed her tenderly. �You my sweet must be exhausted.�
Giggling happily at his gallantry, Yukina wrapped her arms around her husband�s neck. �Nothing you and a nice cup of tea can�t cure.�
As soon as they were alone, Hiei gave in to his longing and placed a gentle kiss on the redhead�s lips. �I missed you Kurama.�
Berating himself for being overly emotional, Hiei began removing Kurama�s clothes. Knowing how much Kurama liked to be clean, especially before getting in bed, Hiei gave him a quick sponge bath and brushed his hair before dressing him in sleep pants and a t-shirt. Once Kurama was resting comfortably, Hiei expected to curl up beside him and sleep. Unfortunately, he couldn�t clear his head about everything that had transpired.
An hour later, as he stared out the window, Hiei felt Yukina, Shiori and Yusuke returning. Restless and unsure, Hiei slipped out the window and disappeared into the forest. On the porch, Yukina and Yusuke exchanged a look of concern as they felt him leave. Anxious to see her son, Shiori hurried in ahead of them. Looking at Yukina, Yusuke sighed. �Go with Shiori and check on Kurama. I�ll go find Hiei and see if I can figure out what spooked him.�
Nodding, Yukina watched Yusuke sprint off into the forest before following Shiori. When she entered the bedroom, Yukina found Shiori sitting at the side of the bed watching her son sleep. �Yukina, where�s Hiei? I expected him to be here with Shuuichi.�
Yukina sighed. �I�m not sure Shiori. He left when he felt us return. Yusuke went to talk to him.�
Not far away, Yusuke followed Hiei through the forest to the sea. He found Hiei looking out at the endless expanse of water. Shaking his head, Yusuke moved to sit beside Hiei. �You know Hiei, only you would be daring enough to sit at the edge of cliff with his feet dangling over the edge. Nice view though.�
Without turning to look at him, Hiei grunted. �Hn.�
Yusuke leaned closer to nudge Hiei�s shoulder with his. �What�s going on Hiei? You okay?�
Hiei shrugged.
Nodding, Yusuke tried again. �Is Kurama alright?�
Hiei shrugged and nodded.
Impatient with their one sided conversation, Yusuke challenged. �What are you afraid of Hiei?�
When Hiei glared at him, Yusuke smirked and waited for a response. Yusuke was more than a little surprised when the glare faded and he saw a hint of vulnerability before Hiei looked away. �How do I trust him?�
With a smile, Yusuke draped an arm across the fire demon�s shoulders. Hiei stiffened briefly, then surprised Yusuke by leaning against him ever so slightly. �I know it�s hard Hiei, but sometimes it�s a risk we take to be with the people that we love.�
Ruby eyes glanced at him briefly, before looking away again. �What if he�s just luring me into another one of his games?�
Yusuke thought a moment before he answered. �Hiei, you and Kurama have been friends and lovers for a long time. In all these years has Kurama ever outright lied to you? Did he ever make you a promise he didn�t keep?�
Hiei didn�t even need to consider his answer. �No. From day one he told me exactly why he agreed to be my partner. He admitted to being homesick and wanting a demon companion. He also made it very clear from the beginning that the only thing he wanted from our personal relationship was sex and a playmate.�
Flinching at the harsh way Hiei viewed his and Kurama�s relationship, Yusuke tightened his arm around the fire demon�s shoulders. �So, if he�s never given you any reason to doubt his word, why do you doubt him now that he�s realized he loves you?�
Under his arm, Yusuke felt Hiei shrug. Suspicious at Hiei�s silence, Yusuke frowned. �That�s not the only thing you�re afraid of is it?�
When Hiei gave a half hearted attempt to pull away, Yusuke held tight. After a moment Hiei sighed. �Remember when you showed me how hurt Kurama was when he thought I had died? Well, I know exactly how he felt. I thought Kurama died in my arms a few hours ago. We live hard lives in Makai, and no matter how powerful we are, the odds of both of us surviving are not high. I�m not sure I can put either of us through that again.�
Yusuke was shocked that the fire demon had revealed so much. �Kurama used to think that if he didn�t love you and let you go, he couldn�t be hurt if something happened to you. I showed you how miserably that idea failed.�
When Hiei remained silent, Yusuke sighed. �If you think about it Hiei, I�m in the same situation. In fact mine is worse. I�m in love with a human. At best, I won�t even get a hundred years with Keiko. I for one would rather have one year or a hundred with Keiko, then live one minute with the regret of knowing I didn�t even try.�
Knowing Yusuke was right seemed to annoy Hiei. �What happens to you when she dies Yusuke? What will happen to me or Kurama if I do something stupid and get one of us killed? Even if I don�t cause it, my Youko is almost a thousand years older than I am. What do I do when the gods take him from me?�
Even though Hiei was angry, Yusuke could see how much the thought of losing Kurama really scared him. �Believe me Hiei, I wondered that myself a million times before deciding to marry Keiko. We�ll mourn them a while, and then we�ll go on. Just like Kurama did after losing Kuronue and the others he loved in the past.�
When Hiei didn�t seem convinced, Yusuke smirked. �I for one don�t plan on getting myself killed. So the way I see it, if you do something stupid and die, I�ll get another crack at Kurama. And if the gods are kind, and give you and Kurama a long life together before they take him from you, I�ll be there waiting for you when you�re ready to give love another try.�
Yusuke chuckled when Hiei�s head whipped around to stare at him. �You shouldn�t be so surprised Hiei. I hope I�m not the only one that thought that kiss we shared was hot. Damn, if I hadn�t been leaning against that tree you would have melted my knees.�
When Hiei blushed and looked away, Yusuke smiled. �I hope I have a long time to wait for you guys though. Since Keiko and I are limited on time, I didn�t exactly get to �sow my wild oats� if you know what that means. When the time comes though, I�ll be there for both of you.�
Hiei glanced back at Yusuke. Seeing a question in his eyes, Yusuke dared to lean down and kiss him. Surprised to find himself enjoying the Toushin�s kiss, Hiei�s lips parted welcoming him deeper. When the kiss finally ended, Yusuke smiled. �Yep, just as hot as I remembered. Don�t forget Hiei, friends make the best lovers. Just look at me and Keiko, and you and Kurama. Whether you know it or not Hiei, you and Kurama are two of my best friends.�
When Hiei looked back at him, Yusuke could see his friend was considering his proposal. After squeezing his shoulder, Yusuke stood up and held out a hand. �Come on Buddy, it�s time to get back to Kurama.�
Yusuke frowned when Hiei shook his head. �Keep an eye on Kurama for me. Tell him I�ll be back to talk to him soon. And Detective, don�t let him follow me.�
With that, Hiei pushed off from the cliff and was gone from sight in a flash. With a sigh, Yusuke growled up to the heavens as if they would have answers. �How the hell am I supposed to tell Kurama I lost his fire demon? Didn�t I just say I wasn�t going to do anything to get myself killed?�
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Trying to block out the voices around him, Kurama contemplated his options. Opening his eyes seemed like more trouble than it was worth, especially since Hiei wouldn�t be there when he did. The gentle hand stroking his hair though seemed to want to deny him a peaceful oblivion. With few other options Kurama concentrated on the soft voice of a woman and struggled to open his eyes.
A moment later he realized it was Shiori leaning over him. �Mother?�
Seeing her beautiful smile and feeling her gentle hug, Kurama was beginning to believe he wasn�t dead. �Oh Shuuichi! You had us so frightened.�
When Shiori released him, Yukina moved forward to rest a hand on his chest. After a moment she smiled. �Your wounds are all healed Kurama, but you need to rest and regain your strength. You were so close to death, Botan came to collect your soul.�
Ignoring their obvious concern, Kurama only wanted one thing. �Where�s Hiei?�
Not knowing how to answer, Shiori turned to Yukina. With a smile she tried to reassure him. �He�s with Yusuke. They should be back soon.�
With great effort, Kurama tried to sit up. �I have to find Hiei.�
With her hands on his shoulders, Shiori tried to keep him in the bed. �Shuuichi, no! You�re far to weak to go anywhere.�
Beside her, Yukina agreed. �Shiori�s right Kurama. Your youki is so low I doubt you can even walk.�
Against their wishes, Kurama managed to sit up. �You don�t understand. I won�t let Hiei be alone ever again. Mother, please move. I must find him.�
With a stern voice Kurama hadn�t heard since he was a child, Shiori scolded him. �Shuuichi! You get back in that bed right now! Hiei is not lost, he just went for a walk. Nor is he alone, Yusuke is with him. Now lay down. Hiei will be upset if he doesn�t find you in that bed when he gets back.�
Looking at Yukina for conformation, Kurama frowned warily . �Alright, but if Yusuke comes back without him, you won�t be able keep me from going after him.�
Propped up on pillows, Kurama allowed the women to fuss over him as he impatiently waited for Hiei and Yusuke to return. Almost an hour passed before Yusuke appeared in the doorway. �Hey Kurama. Glad to see you�re doing better.�
Frightened green eyes looked back at the Toushin. �Where�s Hiei?�
Scratching his head, Yusuke chuckled nervously. �Oh he�ll be here. I�m not sure when, but he said to tell you he�d be back soon.�
Once again Shiori and Yukina were working to keep Kurama in the bed. This time though, Kurama was less patient as he sternly ordered them to move. �Mother, Yukina, get out of my way! I have to go find Hiei.�
Stepping forward, Yusuke�s voice reflected the authority of a demon king. �Kurama, lay down! Shiori, Yukina, go to the temple and fix Kurama something to eat. He�ll need food to regain his strength.�
Realizing Yusuke wanted to be alone with Kurama the two women nodded and hurried away. When they were alone, Yusuke growled when Kurama continued to try and to rise from the bed. �I said lay down Kurama! You didn�t have the strength to get past Shiori and Yukina, you don�t have a prayer against me.�
Kurama glared at Yusuke a moment before doing as he was told. �Damn it Yusuke, I need to find Hiei.�
Seeing Kurama sitting back against the pillows, Yusuke sighed and went to sit beside him. �Kurama, I know you want to be with Hiei, but he needs a little space right now.�
Seeing the uncertain question in Kurama�s green eyes, Yusuke shifted to put an arm around his friend. �It�s alright Kurama. Hiei just needs a little time. He�ll come around.�
Tiredly, Kurama sighed and rested his head on his friend�s shoulder. �He can have all the time he wants Yusuke, but I need to be near him.�
Yusuke sighed. �I know you do Kurama, but Hiei needs to be alone. He needs time to think. If it helps at all, I don�t think he�s gone far. He said to tell you he�d be back soon to talk to you.�
When Kurama turned to frown at him, Yusuke�s arm tightened around him. �He�s scared Kurama. He thought you died in his arms today. He finally knows what you�ve been afraid of all this time. He�s not only afraid you might die and leave him, he�s afraid he�ll do something stupid and get killed, leaving you alone again.�
Green eyes widened. �Then it�s even more imperative that I get to him Yusuke. I need to reassure him that everything will be alright.�
Yusuke gave him a lopsided grin. �He�s fine Kurama. I took care of him.�
A red brow rose suspiciously. �Just how did you take care of my Dragon Yusuke?�
Yusuke chuckled. �Well, I kind of told him that if either of you is stupid enough to die and leave the other one alone, I�d be there waiting for the other.�
Eyeing him warily, Kurama�s nose suddenly twitched. Yusuke�s cocky confidence wavered when Kurama turned and sniffed him. He held his breath when Kurama leaned closer to lick at his lips. Gold flecked Kurama�s green eyes when they met Yusuke�s gaze. �You dared to kiss my Dragon again?�
Deciding to take a different approach, Yusuke�s fingers grabbed Kurama�s chin confidently. �Yeah I did, and I�m going to kiss you too Kurama. I meant what I told Hiei. If some day in the future, one of you is ever left alone, I will be there. Neither of you need ever be alone.�
Now it was Kurama�s turn to hold his breath as Yusuke lay claim to his lips. Just as Hiei had, Kurama opened willingly to Yusuke�s kiss. When Kurama pulled away from the kiss after only a few seconds, Yusuke looked at him confused. �Kurama�?�
A soft smile spread across Kurama�s lips. �Yusuke, I�ll take care of Hiei and make sure he lives a long and happy life. I just want you to keep the promise you made to take care of him� and love him when I can�t anymore.�
Shaking his head, Yusuke laughed. �You got it Fox. Now lay back and stop looking so sexy before my wife and the other girls get here.�
Before he settled back against the pillows, Kurama gave Yusuke an uncertain look. �You promise Hiei will be here soon?�
Yusuke nodded. �He�ll be here Kurama. Just give him a little time.�
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