Anger And Tears, Happiness And Joy

BY : Lieriallial
Category: Yuyu Hakusho > Yaoi - Male/Male
Dragon prints: 1584
Disclaimer: I do not own YuYu Hakusho, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho or any of it's characters.

Authors Note: Thanks a lot to everyone who read my Gundam Wing fic, "In The Lap Of Luxurious Love." If you haven't read it, go back and read it, PLEASE! Also, please rate and review this one!

Yusuke looked at his shaking hands. He was even more scared now than he'd been when he & his mother had been informed that she had lung cancer. Atsuko had been understandably upset, but she was relatively calm because she had almost expected it, as she had been smoking most of her adult life. It had been a long, difficult battle, one which she ultimately lost, and now she was gone. But this wasn't what had Yusuke so upset and scared.

Today had been Atsuko's funeral. Kuwabara, Yukina, Genkai, Kurama, and even Botan and Koenma had been there. Keiko, unfortunately, had been unable to attend because of her work schedule. After the service and burial, Yusuke had stayed there in the cemetery, completely heartbroken. They had buried her next to his father, who had died when Yusuke was only three. He sat, leaned against the gravestone, in silence. The rain started falling, and he didn't care. Let it drown him for all he cared. He didn't even notice it at all until he realized that he was no longer getting soaked, and that there was someone standing there with an umbrella.

"We can't have you getting sick, Yusuke," Kurama said. He knelt next to him, and Yusuke immediately dove into Kurama's arms, crying so hard that the older man could feel him shaking violently, his aura amazingly cold, even for a hardened demon, which Yusuke was decidedly not. "There, there, Yusuke, it's all right. Don't worry, it's all right."

"Damn it, damn it, damn it!" he wept. "Why did she have to die?! I don't understand! I know I wasn't the best son in the world, but why did she have to leave so soon?!"

"Believe me, Yusuke, if I knew the answer to that, my life would be so much easier, because I'd also know things that would make me rich," he said. "Just know how much I care about you." That's what really scared him. His feelings for Kurama were deeper than any he'd ever had for Keiko. Perhaps it was the fact that no matter what, Kurama had always been there. He couldn't say the same for Keiko. The feel of his hands on his chest during the escapes from danger they'd made together, the protective nature of the fox, and the fact that HE had been there when Keiko had been unable or unwilling. Yes, he cared for Keiko, and he always would, but there was only one person who always enflamed his passions, and that was Kurama.

As if on cue, Kurama walked into the dark room and sat down next to him on the bed. "Yusuke, do you want to talk?"

"Kurama, I'm confused," he said. "This afternoon hardly feels like it was real. Being held in your arms like that made me realize that I really don't love Keiko. I look at your face and I wonder if I even deserve something as beautiful and strong as what you are."

"That doesn't sound like confusion to me," Kurama said. "It sounds like you know exactly what you want." Kurama smiled, and that gave Yusuke great comfort and strength. He wrapped his arms around Yusuke's waist, putting his chin on Yusuke's shoulder.

"I feel whole when I'm around you," Yusuke said. "I just hope you don't think I'm on a rebound from losing my mother."

"Of course not," he said. "Your mom went much faster than anyone expected. You're trying to find something to fill that void. I would be happy to help you find that, even if we don't end up together in the end. Why don't I just stop talking and kiss you?"

"Yes," Yusuke breathed, turning around a bit. Their lips touched softly, briefly, and they both smiled. "I've never kissed a man before. Thank you."

"I love you, Yusuke," he said. "I was worried you'd flip out when I told you who I felt." He kissed Yusuke again, a soft moan from the dark-haired man signaling him to keep going. He pushed his tongue into his mouth, and Yusuke began to undo the zipper on his shirt.

"I want you, Kurama," Yusuke moaned. Kurama was about to answer him when the shrill voice of a young woman broke the mood completely.

“Yusuke!” Keiko screamed. “With me, now!”

“No, Keiko,” he said. “I’m not your fucking lapdog, and I DON’T love you.”

“You don’t...” Keiko said, tears coming to her eyes. “If this is because your mom died, I can sort of understand, but... When did you decide you were gay?”

"I realized that I love Kurama this afternoon, after the funeral," he said. "He was there for me in a time when I'd just given up on anyone else caring."

“Does anyone else know?”

“No, we only just told each other, Keiko,” Kurama said.

“Keiko, I...” Yusuke tried to apologize, but she stopped him abruptly.

“Go to hell, Yusuke!” she said. “I can’t believe I waited for you for three years! It would've been a hell of a lot less painful if I'd never seen you again!"

"Yes, it probably would have," Yusuke said. "I'm sorry you had to find out like this."

"Just stay away from me," she said, walking out and slamming the door.

"Damn it!" he said. "I was worried about this happening. She'll probably never speak to me again."

"That was my fault," Kurama said. "I had a feeling we might start into something, and I should've locked the door when I came in. But what do you say we continue where we left off before we were interrupted?"

"Yes," he said, slowly lowering them both to the bed.


Keiko walked quickly to her bedroom when she got home. She was completely and utterly pissed off at Yusuke. If he was going to break up with her, why couldn't he have told her to her face before he cheated on her?! The room was dark, so she didn't notice a certain someone sitting in the window seat. Since coming back to the living world, Hiei had been watching her, admiring her from a distance. He could see that the young woman was not being given as much attention as she probably should, and this he was almost glad of. While he was always hidden from her view, he was always with her. He loved the sound of her voice, the way she moved, and even her thought processes amused him. He was no angel, but he knew heaven through her.

When she turned on the light, she saw him. It was strange to him, but she hardly seemed surprised that he was there. Her eyes met his, and his heart ached to see tears. "May I ask what happened, Miss Keiko?"

“It’s Yusuke,” she said. “He broke up with me.”

“I’m sorry,” he said. “Urameshi is a fool to give up such a beautiful girl as you.” Keiko blinked in surprise at his statement. “Dry those tears. I hate seeing you cry because I care about you. In fact, I want so badly for you to be a part of my life.” He sat down on the couch, and tentatively touched her hand. She didn’t resist him, so he folded his fingers around hers. “May I... um... Would it be too soon for me to ask if I can... I mean... May I kiss you, little one?”

“Only if you stop calling me little one,” she said with a small smile. His lips gently touched hers, and her hands reached up to touch his face and hair. Breaking the kiss, they looked at each other for consent to continue. “Go on, Hiei." He growled at her as he thrust his tongue into her mouth. Their tongues did a mating dance and Keiko moaned. “Oh, Hiei...”

“Keiko,” Hiei moaned. “I want you so bad...”

“Let's close the blinds," Keiko said, taking his hand. "Then we can do this there by the window." Without a word, Hiei gathered her into his arms and practically carried her to the window seat. He didn't let go of her as he closed the blinds, slowly lowering her into the cushions.

“Are you sure you’re ready to sleep with a full demon?" he said softly. "I could very easily make you pregnant, and God knows what kind of creature the two of us could create.”

“I’m willing to take that chance,” she said in a sultry, seductive voice.


Yusuke’s eyes fluttered open. The sun was peeking, through the curtain, and the scent of roses and fox fur was thick in the air. Sighing happily, he smiled. So, this was what the morning after felt like, huh? Kurama’s hand was resting on the edge of Yusuke’s ass, almost possessively, which he had absolutely no problem with. He loved his new mate, and that love would never die. Kurama's face was partially covered by those luscious long red locks, so Yusuke could only see his lips and the bottom of his nose.

As he slowly woke up, Kurama could smell his Mazo-ku lover's scent on and around himself. His hair was in front of his eyes, so he couldn't see yet, but he wanted to see Yusuke sleeping, to revel in the feeling of spending the first morning with the man he loved. He realized that Yusuke had beaten him to the punch when he moved the hair from his face and saw him looking down at him.

"Good morning, Kitsune," Yusuke said.

"Mm, morning," Kurama said sleepily. "Sleep well, Love?"

"Very," he yawned. "You wore me out."

"Good," he said. "I hope this can turn into a regular thing for us."

"It can definitely be arranged," Yusuke said. "Hearing you call my name in your sleep is such a turn on." They both laughed, and then they snuggled for a few minutes.

"I love you, Yusuke," he said.


“Good morning,” Hiei whispered as he watched Keiko wake slowly. “Sleep well?” She smiled, kissing him lightly. “I’ll take that as a yes.”

“That was good, Hiei,” Keiko said. “So much better than my idiot of an ex-boyfriend.”

“You and I finally agree about him,” he said. “Urameshi is a first-class fool. Why would he give you up?”

“Because he’s in love with someone else,” she blurted out, instantly regretting the statement when Hiei sat up.


“He... didn’t say,” she lied. “But who cares about that now, right? I just had the best night of my life, and you must admit you loved it too. Hiei, I love you.” She snuggled back down under the covers with him, and they shared a few more moments of passion.


A little later, Yusuke and Kurama walked into the kitchen, hand in hand. Yusuke's roommate and best friend, Kuwabara, and his girlfriend Yukina were sitting at the table eating breakfast. Needless to say, the looks on their faces were that of complete and total shock.

"You guys are...? Kuwabara shrieked. "Oh my god! I don't believe it!

"Is there something wrong with that, Kuwabara?" Yusuke said. Kuwabara was sputtering, and Kurama just laughed. Perhaps a bit of Yusuke's personality had rubbed off on him, but he found that tormenting Kuwabara was incredibly fun. "Kurama, what do you say we go out after we eat?"

"Want to show me off, do you?" he chuckled, sticking a glob of peanut butter on his finger into Yusuke's mouth. "Yes, we can do that."

"I want to teach me how to manipulate my powers to control plants the way you do," he said after sucking the peanut butter from Kurama's finger.

"You said go out, not train," he teased. "I was going to take you to meet my mother and step-father."

“Do they know that you’re gay?” he said.

“Yes, he and Mother both know,” he said. “I think they’ll be happy to see that I’ve finally found a partner.”

“Why don’t you two join us for lunch at the diner?” Kuwabara said

"Sure," Yusuke said. "What time should we meet you?"

"Noon?" Yukina said tentatively, and Kuwabara nodded. "Is that okay for you two?"

“If nothing else, we’ll teleport,” Kurama said.


"Father!" Kurama called when they entered the small flower shop.

"Hey, Suichi," his stepfather said. "Missed you at your sister's birthday party last night."

"Oh no!" he said, putting his hand on his forehead. "I was so busy at Atsuko's funeral yesterday that I completely forgot about it. Will you tell Shawna I'm sorry?"

"Sure," he said. "And who's this? I don't think I've ever met him before."

"This is my boyfriend, Yusuke Urameshi," he said, taking Yusuke's hand.

"Pleased to meet you, Sir," Yusuke said.

"You too, Son," his father said. "How long have you known him, Suichi?"

"When I nearly lost Mother, he helped me through it," Kurama said, not really lying, but at the same time not telling the whole truth. "He lost his own mother a few days ago, and that's one of the reasons we're together now, because he turned to me for comfort when he was in pain. When Yusuke graduates from high school, he and I are going to get an apartment together." His step-father smiled, understanding that they meant it. They were head-over-heels in love with each other.

"Have you been to see your mother?" he said, and Kurama shook his head.

"Not yet," he said.


After some nice time shopping and then a walk through the city park, Keiko and Hiei decided to take in a movie. Just after the beginning of the movie, however, they weren’t even watching the movie. Little did they know that Yukina and Kuwabara were sitting just a few rows back, and were THEY surprised! About five minutes before the movie ended, Hiei and Keiko got up and left, but not before Hiei caught sight of Yukina. ‘Oh, shit!’ he thought in a panic. ‘They didn’t watch us that whole time, did they?’ He picked up the pace and pulled Keiko into a run, ultimately finding shelter in an empty theater.

“Um, Hiei, why are we in here?” Keiko demanded, but Hiei hushed her. “What’s wrong?”

“My sister and her boyfriend were watching us in there,” he said, and Keiko blushed. “Let’s get out of here before they can get out of the movie.” The quickly exited the empty room, and began walking down the hall. Just as they arrived at the doors of the room, Kuwabara and Yukina walked through the doors and Kuwabara knocked Hiei down. “Get off me, you big oaf!” Hiei said, having been crushed by Kuwabara’s large body.

“When did the two of you become a couple?” Yukina asked Keiko.

“Just yesterday, actually,” she said. “Yusuke left me for Kurama.”

“Yeah, we saw them together this morning,” Kuwabara said. “It just seemed so weird.”

“It‘s good to see you approve, Kuwabara.” Yusuke said, emerging from the theater that Hiei and Keiko had just been hiding in, arm-in-arm with Kurama. “I wasn’t exactly expecting to let everyone know so suddenly, but yeah, it’s true.”

“I thought we’d most certainly been caught,” Kurama whispered. “You were moaning pretty loudly.”

“I wasn’t the only one,” Yusuke chuckled.

“I’m getting hungry,” Kuwabara said. “What do you say we go get lunch?”

“Not that you didn’t have enough to eat in that movie theater, little bro,” Shizuru said smartly.

“Shizuru!” Kuwabara bellowed. “All we need now are Koenma, Botan, and Atsuko, and we’ll practically have the whole group back together.” Very sensitive to Yusuke’s feelings, but Shizuru and Kurama smacked the red-head across the head after he mentioned Yusuke‘s mother. Yusuke turned his head, determined not to cry, but a few tears slipped out.

“Come on, Kurama,” Yusuke said quietly. “I want to do some more shopping before lunch.” Kurama smiled, waved goodbye to the others, and took Yusuke’s hand.

“Yusuke... shopping?” Keiko said, looking very puzzled. “He always hated shopping..”


“How do you like this one?” Yusuke asked, showing Kurama a ring in the nearby jewelry store.

“Mm... Maybe,” he said. “Let’s see how it looks on your hand.” He took the ring from the counter and slipped it into Yusuke’s hand. “It’s beautiful, just like you.”

“Too bad I don’t get this until the wedding,” Yusuke said. “I guess the engagement ring will do for a while.” He turned to the cashier and threw down $400 on the counter. “Here’s your deposit. I don’t know how long it’ll take to finish paying for it, but I can promise you that I’ll get the rest of the money as soon as I possibly can.”

“Don’t worry about the rest of the money, Yusuke,” said a young woman.

“Mrs. Brown!” Yusuke said in shock. “I didn’t expect to see you here today, with Molly’s wedding tomorrow.”

“I was just here to pick up the rings for the ceremony,” she said. “Take the rings at the amount you’ve paid, and I’ll give you them as a wedding gift.”

“Thank you,” he said. “I may not be able to go to the wedding tomorrow, but tell Molly and Melvin congratulations.”

“All right,” she said. Yusuke took the opportunity to drop to his knees, taking Kurama’s hand.

“Kurama, will you do me the honor of becoming my husband?” he said. “Will you marry me?”

“Yes, and I’d like to ask you the same question.” Kurama brought Yusuke up, who slipped the ring onto his finger. “It’s my turn to ask you.” He went down on his knees as well, and smiled. “Will you marry me?”

“Yes,” Yusuke said, kissing his fiancée. “I love you, Kurama.”

“I never thought I’d be proposing to another man,” Kurama said, exiting the jewelry shop with Yusuke on his arm. “But I’m happy.”

“So am I,” he said. Yusuke suddenly became keenly aware of a grave danger in the vicinity. He quickly pushed Kurama out of the way of a huge blast of spirit energy coming toward them. “Aah!!”

“Yusuke, no!” he screamed. “God, Yusuke, please speak to me! I can't live without you!”

“You... may... have... to...” Yusuke could hardly move or talk.

“You’re badly burned,” Kurama said in a panic. “We have to get you to the hospital! Please, Yusuke, for the love of God, HANG ON!” Yusuke lost consciousness, just as Kurama took his frail form into his arms and began weeping.

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